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Wednesday, May 5th, 2010

Beckett, Repetition and The Tiger Who Came to Tea

I was writing an essay on Beckett’s prose and the minimalist composers recently, and something kept nagging at the edge of my consciousness. The thesis of the piece I was working on was that Beckett, like Philip Glass or Steve Reich, uses the interaction of repetition and snatched moments of extraordinary lyricism to convey life as it is lived. Thus in The End, after a long period of repetition, we suddenly have the following passage, which achieves formally what it describes – the sun shines all the brighter for the fog of repetition that it interrupts: ‘I was making my way through the garden. There was that strange light which follows a day of persistent rain, when the sun comes out and the sky clears too late to be of any use. The earth makes a sound as of sighs and the last drops fall from the emptied cloudless sky. A small boy, stretching out his hands and looking up at the blue sky, asked his mother how such a thing was possible. Fuck off, she said.’ Of course, Beckett, resistant to the Romanticism that always sits just behind his work, snatches the moment away from us with that ‘Fuck off’ at the end of the passage.

As I was writing, I kept thinking that there was something I was missing. Someone else employed this very trick, and could be brought into the essay to support the argument. It was only after I had submitted the piece, and was reading Julia Donaldson’s Stick Man to my little boy, bath-squeaky and pyjama-clad on my knee, that I realised it was from a certain type of children’s book. Because of course repetition is a key facet of myth, and our children’s stories have the most direct relationship with the structures of myth. In Stick Man, as in The Odyssey, we have a hero who must go through a series of tribulations on a long and dangerous voyage before being reunited with his family in his tree-Ithaca. The repetitious nature of these trials builds to a crescendo as the text compresses into single-frame signifiers – from the dog who chases him to the swan who uses him to line her nest we move to a tableau of indignities until Stick Man lies, spent and Christ-like prostrate, in the snow. From the repeated refrain – “I’m not an arm! Can nobody see, / I’m Stick Man, I’m Stick Man, I’m Stick Man, that’s me!” – we suddenly move towards a moment of high lyricism when is seems that all is lost: “Stick Man is lonely, Stick Man is lost. / Stick Man is frozen and covered in frost… He can’t hear the bells, or the sweet-singing choir…”

Similarly in Judith Kerr’s The Tiger Who Came to Tea (there’s a wonderful interview with her here) we find the bulk of the story in the repetition of the tiger eating “all the cake” and “all the milk in the milk jug and all the tea in the tea pot”. Only at the end of the tale, when Sophie’s father has appeared and the tiger’s occupation has been lifted, do we come again to a deeply lyrical scene. “So they went out in the dark, and all the street lamps were lit, and all the cars had their lights on, and they walked down the road to a café.” Here the artwork underlines the effect of the language, with the low full moon hanging above the street lamps and and the shop lights illuminating the happy family scene. An orange and black-striped cat appears behind them as a reminder of the return to normality – it is anything but the suave and threatening tiger of earlier in the book.

In one of our favourites, No Matter What by Debi Gliori, the baby kangaroo – Small – asks his non-gender specific parent Large whether he/she would love him under a variety of Kafkaesque transformations (into a bug, bear or crocodile). The answer is repeated each time “I’ll always love you, no matter what”. At the end of the book Small asks “But what about when we’re dead and gone? Would you still love me? Does love go on?” In a gloriously touching scene, with curtains billowing out onto a Van Gogh sky, we find again a moment of lyricsim that interrupts, and is heightened by, the preceding repetition: “Large held small snug as they looked out at the night, at the moon in the dark and the stars shining bright. ‘Small, look at the stars – how they shine and glow, but some of those stars died a long time ago.’”

Whenever my little boy watches The Snowman, with its brilliant David Bowie cameo, he repeats again and again the word “sad”. The lyricism of these children’s stories does have something elegiac about it. The final scene of Michael Rosen’s We’re Going on a Bear Hunt is a good example. It’s a picture of the bear walking lonely by the shore in the light of a full moon and prompts a “poor bear” from my boy who had previously gnawed his knuckles watching the family scamper away from the terrifying beast. But again a scene of (this time purely visual) beauty in a story that draws upon the repetition of a series of trials (which in Deleuze’s terms are “clothed” rather than “naked” repetition).  The formal technique whereby repetition is interrupted by lyrical beauty does teach us something about life – how beauty is often heartbreaking, how the world is largely mundane but illuminated by snatched moments of wonder which burn brighter for their briefness. We must savour these moments as we rip them from the dull surrounds of quotidian repetition, hold them close to us as we age, as Bowie/James holds his snowman scarf.


Sunday, January 3rd, 2010

Starlings

Starlings have returned to the trees opposite our house. Like the sparrows that once nested in the eaves, chattering and scolding the dawn, I thought the starlings had gone forever. I remember back when we first bought the house my wife and I were out all one night. We went drinking at Charlie Wright’s on Pitfield Street and then to a house party and then stumbling back through the rising summer morning we saw the starlings wheeling above the park, a flash of purple in the milky sky.

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The starlings were gone for four years, and only now that we are getting ready to leave the house have they returned. They fill the air with their querulous cheeps sitting on the boniest fingers of winter branches in the highest trees. I salute them as I step out of the door on my way to work and sometimes they perform for me, turning as if they were one wing wheeling above.

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The starlings made me think of Yeats’ poem The Stare’s Nest by My Window. The nest is empty and the poet is praying for honeybees to come and inhabit the husk. The poem is a prayer for regeneration, for life to spring once again from the tattered remains of what was once a home and a cradle. We are leaving the house now, but I hope that the next people to live there find the same kind of happiness we did – long mornings in bed, dinner parties, a baby’s gummy smile.

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Fieldfares marked my Christmas. We were staying with my wife’s family in Shropshire and the birds flocked in a crab-apple tree outside the kitchen window. The complex dappling of their breasts will forever call up the joy that I felt this Christmas spending time with my little boy, chasing through the fields on sledges and warming our hands by the fire. It was a rather forceful metaphor when, this morning – our last before returning to London and work – a bird cannoned into the kitchen window and fell, lifeless, into a flowerpot in front of us. The frost swiftly beaded on its soft feathers and I called up those lines of Nabokov: “I was the shadow of the waxwing slain / By the false azure of the windowpane.”

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Friday, November 13th, 2009

Fear of Flying

Reading this article by A.L. Kennedy I started thinking about my own fear of flying. About how, when the wheels leave the tarmac, and the plane banks to the left, and the engines scream as we move higher than any human was meant to climb, I watch my knuckles turn white against the armrest and grind my jaw. I imagine the moments, perhaps minutes, of pure white terror as the plane falls to earth, the hours spent limping towards a landing strip on the Azores with an engine on fire, the sound of snapping necks and broken jaws as the nose grinds into the earth. I look out at the engine and think about metal fatigue and hungover mechanics.

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As a writer I am preconditioned to imagine the dramatic potential inherent in the everyday. We write the extraordinary, we make life thump. And I know that it is statistically close to impossible that I will die in a ball of flames, my rational mind is confident that I will land in Tokyo or Sydney or New York unscathed. But I sit and imagine myself into the stories of those who did go down and I feel panic rise in my throat. And the feeling of being out there, miles from the earth, far above the structures which surround and protect us from lonely oblivion, it is a little bit like dying. So I fetishize my flights, choose the same seat each time, drink the same beer before take off and then lose myself in work and more beer and then sleeping pills if it’s long enough. But I won’t stop flying. Because part of me rather likes the fear. In a world where I’m never really in danger, when I step from warm, carpeted house into steel-reinforced car, from statistically even safer train into portered office block, it is perhaps salutary for me to feel the ice breath of fear. My nervous system jangles after a flight. As I walk through the fragrant streets of a foreign city I feel more alive for having felt, even within the Dawkins-scorned atavistic recesses of my mind, that I have stepped close to the dangerous edge of things.

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